Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Hawaii

I have a love/hate relationship with this place.

There are positives and negatives to living in a place like this.
The weather, the water, the eye-candy... it really can be paradise.

Don't get me wrong, I definitely don't take for granted that I wear flip-flops and capris 365 days a year. Most days I love living here, then somedays I feel like I don't truly get the chance to experience what Hawaii has to offer.

I basically live life like a single working mom with no time for much of anything else. I might as well still be in Jersey except I've got no family here. I do, luckily, have friends that are the most amazing military wife family a girl could ever ask for.

I live in the most Romantic place on earth and I 've spent more time here alone than anything else. This seems to be the thing with me here.

When I was stationed here with my ex-hub we were here 20 months and I spent 14 of those here by myself while he went to Oki, Australia, San Diego and wherever else the Marine Corps decided to send him.

This time around in the 18 months I've been here so far the hub has been gone 11 of those months between NTC and the sandbox. I know what I signed up for but that doesn't make it any easier.

There are days where I see happy newlywed couples walking through the mall all happy, holding hands and being cutesy. I think how dare they rub their happiness in my face like that, totally not their fault, just the jealousy I feel ..that they have what I want and miss terribly.

We are now on the downside of this deployment and we only have roughly 5 months left which isn't much time. It's hard to believe that a whole year has almost gone by.. it seemed so fast yet so long.

I can't wait for him to come home, so we can once again be one of those cutesy(not so newlywed) couples that I see in the mall.

4 comments:

Mrs. Staff Sergeant said...

That's tough. I'd probably have a hard time enjoying myself there too if my husband were gone on such a long deployment :(

I hope that once he comes home the rest of time you're stationed there is more fun for you!

New Girl on Post said...

I can imagine that being in Hawaii it would feel like you were in paradise and hell at the same time.

When he gets home I think you'll be one of those gushy couples making others jealous. :)

A Soldier's Wife..... said...

Unfortunately you are the majority and not the minority facing this same issue all around the globe....it's just hard when you are so far away from home and in such an exotic place. I did it in Europe....spending only about 5 of 28 months with my husband. Once upon a time....life in our world wasn't like this...but I don't see it changing for the better any time soon.

I wish for young families that they knew what it was like "once upon a time" when the world wasn't crazy and all of us weren't living year to year, facing so much time alone...doing the best you can just to survive what life throws at you, whether it be in sunny, warm Hawaii, blisterly chilly Bavaria, or home sweet home Jersey....

I am glad you have your friends there to help ease the loneliness you feel, sometimes that is all we are left with when our husbands leave....and sometimes it is all that gets us through.

Here's to a fast ending to your deployment

~asw

Ana said...

Blech, that is a downside to living there, huh. All the honeymooners...

I so hope the next five months go by fast for you! They never go fast enough, but one can always hope.